I was thinking a lot about gender expression around this time. I have a lot of complicated feelings surrounding gender expression and body image. Some days I want to feel pretty and cute, but I look at myself in the mirror and what I see makes me feel like being pretty is impossible. Those days I put on masculine clothes to hide the body that I hate so much. Some days I’m happy to dress masculine because it’s honestly more comfortable and practical than feminine clothing tends to be. I’m happy that it’s often less expensive, better-made, and lower-maintenance. It’s a complicated whirlpool of emotions, and someday I hope I can find peace and acceptance with the body I have.